Learned :
1. If I am uncomfortable with a situation I sometimes....make it about me.... so I can get control of the situation. I don't have to do that. If I don't like how something is going, it's okay to say, "hey - I think I'm gonna just do me tonight." There's nothing wrong with that. It's okay to have space.
Stop worrying so much. I worried that if I left I was a bad girlfriend, I worried that he watched too much TV and that meant he was ALWAYS going to watch too much TV and that we weren't compatible. If I left, I would just be accepting that. I didn't want to. I had lots to do at my house and didn't want to leave him. As soon as I turned the tables, I realized how nice it would be to just do me. Take a night to clean the house, and pamper myself the way I am used to...if I wanted to. It doesn't change anything.
I enjoyed our closeness. It also makes me panic. I'm working on that. Balance. Breathe. Goosefraba.
2. When I get fussy.....STOP. It's time to take a time out. Evaluate what I want to do for myself. Don't make up things for me to do FOR HIM. Where did I get this notion that I was responsible for his happiness? I need to stop thinking. Good luck.
Tonight, the clothes will get put away. Josie will get brushed, Johnny will get a clean tank and I will watch Wolfman while doing my toes and plucking my eyebrows.
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