What happened to relationships being about friendships and spending time together? Doesn't anyone want to do that anymore? I finally met someone that I like spending time with and enjoy being around and unfortunately, like perusal, it's like pulling fucking teeth to get this person to ask ME to spend time with him or if it's anything outside of what he usually does (barmuda triangle with friends or catching up on TV), he somehow is just not up to it. What the fuck is up with that? The confusion comes from the fact that when we DO spend time together I feel like we are both having a good time. He says things like, "I'm so glad you came over. I'm so glad you called." So then why.....do I feel so absurd asking him to do something with me?
Because I already feel like he's not going to do it. He's not going to be comfortable doing it. And that is why I am trying to figure out why it's about locational comfort and not just about spending time with me anywhere. I don't think this is a situation where I'm being needy because I thoroughly enjoy my alone time, I'm not lonely. I just like his company and have recently started thinking of fun things we could do together. I know that people say things like, 'when you're with the right one, there's no effort, there's no "work"' but what if you like the person and they're just not in the same place as you - yet. I know, I know. Probably not the right person. I just don't want to hang this up. Do I have to stop seeing this person because he doesn't exert a certain effort to engage in "my" life - even though I have a great time when I am engaging in his life? Will he come around? I feel like I hang up my towel every time the slightest little hiccup occurs. Is this a hiccup or something worth exploring? Can we navigate our way out of this barmuda triangle?
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